Monday

Change

Hey.. It's good been so long! Its now October and I'm good... So much has gone on.. I'm in school full time to be a dentist so that's great. I have amazing grades but that's no surprise. Still single but whatever when God wants me to meet someone I will. My hair.. haha.. I think that was my last entry, but it has grown but my stylist cut it.. Maybe I'll add a picture to it... but it looks good.. I've also lost some weight so that a +++ lol.. no other way of saying it but with the symbol. My moms 3 year anniversary of her death is in 2 weeks.. been crying a lot lately.. seems like everything triggers it.. Kim Kardashians wedding was the start of it though.. So I'm gonna start posting some things in here... I have so much to talk about.. CRAZINESS!!! ..... but I gotta do it in order from my last post... hmm IDK..

La confiance est belle

Subconscious thoughts!!!

So...I went into the bathroom to brush my teeth and wash my face.. as a result I chopped off all my hair... The first time I cut my ends and went to sit on my couch.. 3 minutes later I was back in the bathroom. Cutting and cutting with short minute breaks that resulted in me not having any hair.. I know I know I said I wouldn't cut it again but I couldn't help myself. The crazy thing is I've never physically cut my own hair so u can imagine how butchered I may look.. I cried as soon as I was done.. Can't believe I did this to myself. It has to do with my weight, it just has too! I've noticed that every time I cut my hair off its a result in a sudden weight gain... I wonder if the hair cut makes me get control of myself... yeah.. probably.. fat faced people do not look good with short hair.. SO control it.. lol I don't know, but I know I need to park it real soon... 

Sunday

Try the Cherry Popsicle!!

I know this chic Corey who’s specializes in sucking dick, like she really enjoys it. She told me that she can make a dude bust a nut 3 times in 10 minutes just by sucking his dick. I believe her to.. I remember my girlfriend was trying to teach me how to suck dick, I had to be 16. It was so funny she came in my bedroom with 2 cucumbers and just started sucking. I was soo confused and frustrated because I couldn’t get it. As I got older and became comfortable with giving head I learned one thing. The wetter the better!!!  Men like wet head, no man wants you sucking his dick with cotton mouth, shit hurts… Teeth is ok IF you know how to use your teeth… Don’t go biting his shit, caressing his shaft as you choke down is ok… Once you perfect the deep throat aspect you should be good… Have fun with it, men will enjoy themselves more if they see your turned on by it.



Friday

Awesomeness

Some of you know him from Criminal Minds maybe 500 Days of Summer regardless Matthew Gray Gubler will leave you feeling breathless. Gubler’s hippy and gruff  appearance goes great with those deep sultry eyes. They tell a story and IDK about you but I’m dying to know the truth. He plays Dr. Spencer Reid on CBS’ hit show Criminal Minds currently filming Season 7. Welcome Back JJ….. As the 27 year old genius doctor, Gubler has proven his spot on this hit show. His witty comments and idyllic memory goes great with the teenage flare he possesses. Check for yourself as to why he’s my # 1 celebrity crush…..







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We are never satisfied with what we have. 


I’m feeling slightly indifferent. You see my cousin has been staying with me for the last two months and today she got her own place. Now these last two months have been hell. Being a private tidy person can be difficult when you open your home. Personally, I positive I have obsession compulsion disorder. I like things in order milk and water on one side of the fridge and juices on the other. Everything has a place and every place has space. 


My cousin is the slobs of all slobs. She doesn’t pick up after herself, leaves food everywhere. Will put something in the fridge without a lid.. Ugh I was the only one cleaning thinking to myself “bitch you shit and bleed in that toilet too, Clorox it sometimes!!!" It didn’t help that I live in the basement of my house, So my bed was right next to my couch where she slept.  I mean I can go for days on why I was unhappy, but at the end of the day she’s my cousin and I’ve been in her shoes. 


Anyway she’s gone now and all I can find myself doing is looking over to my couch and missing the pile of shit she had. Like I said she irritates the hell out of me but all I want is for her ass to come back. 

Thursday

Harmony

Music is the art which is most nigh to tears and memory.  ~Oscar Wilde

I saw this guy Javier Colon on the auditions of The Voice, my heart stopped.  He has been nothing but a blessing to my ears, such a angelic voice and phenomenal stage presence. He captures my attention every time. I don’t know how he isn't a star but something has to be done. Listen for yourself 






Sex gone right

Sex without love is a meaningless experience, but as far as meaningless experiences go its pretty damn good. - Woody Allen


The moment you feel the vibrations of your clitoris hit the side of your vagina lip and the moistness of your panties from the thought of him inside of you happens when? All I need is to hear his voice and my body begins to trimmer. It doesn’t matter if we just finished fucking or if I’m mad. His voice is my trigger. To look into someone’s eyes knowing they have that type of control over you is insane. Just thinking about this makes me want to get off. To have a perfect penis that fits your vagina without being to big or small can become overwhelming. The thought of licking and sucking this penis turns you on.


Sex is not a chore it’s a sport.. Who can go the longest without tapping out, who can give the nut first, who sweats the most… I like my sex intense… smacking, choking, biting… What do you like, what’s your twist?